Difficult separation, addiction issues, addiction was the problem, love was abundant. I made him leave to get clean, he moved 2000 miles away, got clean and moved in with someone else. Now he blocked me. I’m not handling this well at all. I can’t control my emotions, my uncontrolled emotions are controlling the destruction of my life.
I have anxiety so bad that I can’t control my breathing just to even meditate. I need meditation on my life. It is so good for me.
I’m just lost. Things aren’t going well for me. I need to get my life back on track. Before I met this person I was so happy, so stable, so grounded. I feel like my world has been turned upside down. The rollercoasters of addiction, his turned into ours, they have destroyed me… I feel like nothing. Oh I’m clean, but trying to get back there I need to be has been more than challenging.