I have no children or husband or boyfriend and I am amazingly lonely and in need of peace that this will probably be the situation permanently, then I was diagnosed with bipolar in 2008. That did not help with coming to terms with this. I was studying to be a chaplain at the time, all of that fell away with my diagnosis. Before the diagnosis and seminary I was a criminology major so that did not help in meeting new people after college seminary and the bipolar.I have been searching for something to bring me back to myself for a long time now. In the past I have taken classes on meditation and spiritually, outside of organized religion and I always felt a better sense of calm. I want to get back to that feeling. I have been stuck in a cycle of Dr appointments, medication, government insurance all of that seems to have just taken over. The world is getting to a place that I have trouble dealing with emotionally. I need to find some peace. I began searching for “alternative” ideas away from organized religion since I found peace in spirituality and meditation and looking inward I hope to get back to a semblance of peace.